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Dec. 6th, 2011 02:39 pm[NB: I originally wrote this on October 7th, shortly after Occupy Philadelphia began. I had kept it private for a while.]
i did not know that
being beaten and spit on by cishetero bullies
egged on by cishetero adults in power suits
and somehow managing to claw my way
to some level of financial security
at the cost of my sanity
sacrificed to those same cishetero adults in power suits
then deciding to stop lying to my self
and come out
and watching my income drop by 60%
then being unemployed for 30 months
and losing my home
and losing my health insurance
and losing my sanity
and losing my health
then getting a glimmer of hope
(wow, i can buy food and gas this month
without dipping into my dwindling savings)
and having that hope dashed
by people wearing power suits
as my body hurts:
nerves in my leg freaking out
muscles in my back freaking out
(they don't deal well with a spine bent to one side)
shoulders freezing up
thyroid burnt out
mind patched up with drugs
that i cannot afford:
i did not know that being all that
and daring to be angry at those with the power suits
and daring to give public voice
to my anger
together with thousands of other people
daring to give public voice
to our anger
makes me a hipster
but if so
then so be it.
i did not know that
being beaten and spit on by cishetero bullies
egged on by cishetero adults in power suits
and somehow managing to claw my way
to some level of financial security
at the cost of my sanity
sacrificed to those same cishetero adults in power suits
then deciding to stop lying to my self
and come out
and watching my income drop by 60%
then being unemployed for 30 months
and losing my home
and losing my health insurance
and losing my sanity
and losing my health
then getting a glimmer of hope
(wow, i can buy food and gas this month
without dipping into my dwindling savings)
and having that hope dashed
by people wearing power suits
as my body hurts:
nerves in my leg freaking out
muscles in my back freaking out
(they don't deal well with a spine bent to one side)
shoulders freezing up
thyroid burnt out
mind patched up with drugs
that i cannot afford:
i did not know that being all that
and daring to be angry at those with the power suits
and daring to give public voice
to my anger
together with thousands of other people
daring to give public voice
to our anger
makes me a hipster
but if so
then so be it.